Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I was traveling through Switzerland with my friends Dave, Nathan and my cousin Christian to meet up with my friend Anoushka and her family who live in Lausanne. The dream began with Christian and I entering a
shopping mall and Christian had snuck into a secluded area beneath the stairs to hide our shoes and jacket so we wouldn't have to carry them around. As soon as he was inside I could tell the mall security cops had found out he was in a restricted area so I discreetly walked away as they started looking for him. I found myself in the back of the mall where a conference was in progress and I waited there until my cousin was able to elude the security and meet back up with me.

In the next segment I had met Anoushka's mom on the side of a deserted country road. Somehow we both knew that my main reason for this trip was to see Rachel but we hugged each other and spoke happily about how nice it was to see each other again. The sun had just begun to set and in the distance a girl around ten years of age appeared on the road. Anouschka's mom had called for her and as she slowly walked towards us I began taking pics of her bathed in the sun's orange glow with the silhouette of a large old barn in the background.

Next I found myself eating hamburgers with Anouschka and Kasia. We were taking pictures of the food and trying to come up with some ideas for what to do that evening. I walked over to Nathan and he gave me a passcode to use with my phone so that I could text my friends back home for free.

That night we all ended up at a party in someone's house down the street from where Anouschka lived, and my cousin and I were still in our socks because our shoes were still at the mall. When no one was looking I snuck away from the party and decided to walk past Anouschka's house in the hopes that Rachel would be home. I was carrying a large bouquet of flowers which I thought would be a nice gesture but as I approached the house I saw a light on upstairs and the gravity of the situation had fallen upon me. I knew it was Rachel in that room and suddenly all of my doubts and insecurites has risen to the surface. What would she think of me?  Would she be upset that I was there? The sidewalk lead me into the backyards of the rest of the neighborhood, and I continued to walk until I finally had the courage to turn around. I passed by her house again, more slowly and deliberately, but this time all of the lights were out and I was a bit sad that I may have lost my only opportunity to see her.